Thursday, August 31, 2006
frustration
im feeling wired now. n im very sad=( sometimes things just dunt go de way u want it to b. i think things r always going wrong in my world, coz always got a lot problems around me anytime in my life, i felt as if i am a troublemaker, no matter how hard i tried but things are still going wrong ah!
hey i like rainy day, i dunno why but i just like this kind of feeling. i used 2 hate it, it's humid, sad n desperate, but dunno when i began 2 like this. it gives me a kind of strange feeling, it's kinda free n lazy thingy :') maybe im a slacker lor~ but i just like de weather 2 be rainy, it seems as if tat even de sky is cryin, i noe tat it's a childish thought, but i like 2 say so, n it's so difficult 2 explain why.
one of my friends always buys a lot of fruit, n he eats fruit everyday, so i asked him why does he eat fruit everyday, he said it was his habit, he just forces himself to eat even if he doesn't really like it, coz when he was at home his parents forced him 2 eat fruit n now if he doesn't eat he would feel tat there's something wrong...
it's a confusing answer, but it's de truth. hahas, ya once we hav a certain habit it's very difficult 2 give 'em up, even some of 'em may be vices, *^^* like slacking!
a bad thing happened again, 2day i tangled with one of roommate again, u noe why? it's just coz tat i wrote Language Art Night as Langarts Nite. gd lor den he said i was bringin' shame 2 de original british english, sian ah! he himself everyday try 2 act cool, hair gel? 500 bucks nike basket ball shoes? n his 'british english'? n now im scolded by this kind of person? what did i do was wrong? i feel tat some ppl r so stupid, and they r jealous of everything, n i hate this, i noe why he scolded me, it's just tat got a lot local ppl tag me, den he's not peace wah. but wat is de point 4 tat? why he wanna beat others in anything ? i really dunno, n i just hate this kinda ppl.
kkays~ i gtg le! hahas, n i hav 2 say tat 2day is a bad day. frusration is everywhere around me, so i walk myself away, n try 2 b another brand new me...
coz someone said tat 'life still owns' wah!
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